The reason why I have a blog in the first place is simple: I want to be able to remember my life. There are so many things that are too important to be forgotten and I do not trust my memory to help me out. Lately, however, I've been using my blog as a telephone poll rather than a diary. It's great, but the links and other things I post will be gone one day and I will be left with nothing to look at and remember. The problem is, I can't seem find things worth writing down. I feel like that mentality is something that happens when you get older. It's a shame if it's true... but I'm still going to try.
Currently, I'm living in a restored mill (did I mention that before?)with my girlfriend and our Pug, Wrinkles. He was very sick the other day and we had to take him to an Animal Hospital. He's fine now, but he gave us a bit of a scare. He's much better now... and he behaves more now... even stranger.
Even more current, we're playing host to a very good friend of ours who needs a place to stay for a while. Seems to be going well. It's actually really nice to have another person around.
Bakbone Records is fairly stagnant right now but we're feeling very confident in our future plans. Time will tell.
My music project, Gmatron is far from fruition but I've been doing a lot of thinking regarding it's production style etc. I'm really excited. Film still pops up every once and a while but not as much as music. It's scary in a way. I recognize that film is more fulfilling for me. It makes me much happier just thinking about it. It eliminates my anxiety when I think more visually and creatively. It's the ideal form of escapism for me. It's coming. I feel it. Christmas always brings about some creative surge for me.
My girl and I have been thinking and looking for a new place to live. Our lease is up in 5 months or so and we don't know if we want to stay where we are. I'll keep you posted.
My mom and I stopped talking about. It's not something I'm happy about but it's totally necessary. What sucks is that I feel like my relationship with my younger brother will never be what it should now. I have a very bad feeling about the future of this situation.
I'm still slightly anxious most of the time or at least when I have nothing to do. I feel a lack of cognitive awareness to help myself when I feel that way. It's unlike something I've ever had to deal with. I hate it. When I felt upset, last year even, I would know what to do to get myself out of it. Now, I can't even realize that I'm not feeling well enough to help myself in the moment. crazy.
I'm unemployed and, though my grades are fine, I'm having a very hard time staying motivated this semester. I bought a car! I forgot to mention that probably because it's not on the road yet. I have to get it fixed, insured, and registered and I don't have the money right this moment to do that... but soon.
anyways... that's all that I can say right now. I plan to post some pictures of my life very soon.
